I
had the best evening with Kooky and Semsem, after Salem and Maha left. I
resisted them so much; they wanted me to watch a Disney movie with them and I
had piles of plates in the sink and wanted to finish tomorrow's lunch because
my schedule is really tight with six hours of teaching three different classes
and I still had to prepare some materials.
I said OK, when you decide what movie to watch, come and tell me and I
will watch as much as I can when I clean up the kitchen. But then Kareem said,'
Mama, do you know what I really want to be right now? I want to be your mother and you my son.' When I asked why, he said "because then
I will choose to sit and watch the movie with you!" I was amazed at the
logic of my sweet five year old son, and his way with words. It was simple as
that. And I just could not resist it.
I
went to the kitchen, turned the stove off and closed the door so that I will
not see how badly the kitchen needed cleaning. TO HELL WITH THE KITCHEN! I sat on the big sofa between the twins and we
played The Lion King, again , maybe for the fiftieth times, but it felt
different this one time. We got a
blanket because it was cold; we snuggled, laughed, tickled, and hugged. We cried
when Mufasa died and sang along with Simba and Nala and danced with "I
just can't wait to be king" and roared like a lion till we almost lost our
voices.
I wish I can do this more often . l wish I have
time to engage with the twins in fun activities and stop being a caterer for
food, a driver or a teacher. I realized after that night how much I needed them
and how much I wanted to be a real mother. Mothering is not something you do by
instinct; you really need to learn and my best teachers so far are my lovely
twins.
a lovely piece; really precious!
ردحذف!